I'm so Obsessed!

with MARSHMALLOWS!!! :D

aren't they adorable..?? :)

Nostalgic State

Yehey!!! I'm done pre-testing my research instruments! I did it faithfully! S'proud of moi!! hahaha!!! =)) well it's been quite a roller coaster week... Still dealing with difficult people at school.. We're back to basic! Anyways.. It's not as if I care or something... Ok. I do care... But it's just because it's too pathetic... It's getting on m'nerves! So anyways... This is a happy post... Le'me tell you what happened to me today...

See I pre-tested my interview schedule for my thesis earlier today... The venue??? My Alma Matter... Rizal Elementary School... After seven years I came back to the place where I spent the six years of my childhood. I did felt strange going back there... You know the feeling of being out of place and lost in a place.. Haha! But it doesn't last long... Somehow I felt home... Like I knew every corner of it... I reminisce my childhood... I missed it so much. I remembered my long time best friend... How we grew up, build and shared dream together... How we ran and played all over the place. Together with our classmates and other friends. Whatta morning! :)

I indeed expect these kind of feeling... Y'know.. Like the feeling of sadness... But what I didn't expect was the feeling of fulfillment... It was so good to look back on how you were way back years ago and realizing that there's been a lot of changes... And thinking what or how did you see yourself back on those years???? It is truly amazing how things in life turns as unexpected as they do. :)

CARD'z 5th Anniversary

August 15, 2011

Five years after CARD'z was formed... Oh.. I never talked about them here in this blog huh...? Well.. we had our own blog site in multiply..  Which I haven't updated in a while.. My bad.. I'm quite busy.. Y'know that m'dear blog.. Hahaha!! =))

So anyways... I just practically wanna talk about how we celebrated the 5th year of our friendship...

 I was thinking about how to celebrate it this year since like last month... Because last year we were unable to celebrate it together... So I really wanna be with them... Planned lot's of things in my head and finally a week before August 15... Rose Ann and I saw that advertisement of "Manila Bay Cruise" at Harbor Square... We've decided to share the expenses for our two best friends just for us to be together on our special day... I was so excited that I called and booked for four right away... Plan, plan, plan.. Imagining stuffs in my head... Full of excitement as I've said... When suddenly it needs to be cancelled... :( All my excitement drained out..Well it wasn't actually cancelled as in cancelled... We just have to move it on a nearest Saturday... But still.. I was so upset.. Though Rose Ann and Czarina console me.. The sched's been fixed again on the 20th this time.. The feeling was so unlike the previous days... I stop thinking and being excited about it... And the fact that we have no idea where on earth can Ailene be... Whether she'll be able to join us or not.. Makes all my plans so vague... :| I wanted so bad for the four of us to be together like before... I wanted to see us whole again... Haay.. I felt like circumstances won't allow it... As far as we know Ailene is pregnant. That's all... We don't have any idea how she is or whether she does think of us at all... And as the 15th coming closer and closer... I'm losing my hope that we'll be whole.. And suddenly I got fed up with my thought... Told m'self that if Ailene won't be with us then that's it... I'm giving up.

I'm the one who keeps saying that "this friendship is for a lifetime".. "best friends forever"... "I'm up for a lifetime friendship" and other stuffs like that.. But I'm also the one who keeps bringing up the idea of "giving up"... Full of contradictions.. I know... It's quite annoying... But I guess that's why this group was formed... To have the other side.. To have neutral side... To have other opinion... I guess that's what makes us up... To be able to guide each other on each decisions we make... Or just a simple support... Thankfully I had them at my side tonight when I rant about how I'll give up on Ailene when she won't be with us tonight. All day long myself was battling against me... About whether or not to give up on A... I don't know... I just felt like t.. :)) Then when I told Rose Ann and Czarina about it.. Rose Ann brought up the "PRIORITY THING"... She had a point.. Ailene has her own family already... And she can't chose us over her son and soon-to-be daughter... That was clear to me... But as myself kept battling with me... Inside m'head I was thinking... We all had different priorities.. And I'm not even asking anyone to chose... The only thing I demand from her is time... And the feeling that she also wants us to be with her.. the effort.. But I made my thought shut up..

 CARD'z

     blowing the number 5 candle

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Happy B-day!!!

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I was the kind of person who thinks highly of signs asked from the Almighty... And I've been asking the sign of whether or not to give up on A... I was serious when I told  Cza &Rose Ann that I'll let Ailene go when she isn't home tonight when we dropped by.. But as we were on our way to A's house.. I found myself praying "Sana andun sya..." Meaning.. I don't wanna let her go at all. And taadaa!!! She was home!.. :D Guess we have heaven's blessings! :)

To have this friendship for a lifetime means countless of...
1. Anniversaries
2. Tears
3. Tampuhan
4. Inisan
5. Kaartehan
6. Kalokohan
7. Outings
8. Frappes
9. Foods
10. Kwentuhan
11. Secrets
12. Messages
13. Ideas
14. Memories
15 Everything

iloveus!♥


*Special thanks to Goldilocks for the cake and Starbucks for the frappes.. Special thanks to R&D for ehem... Financing everything up.. =))*

Fixed! :)

Yey! Finally I can open you to public again!!! :)) There's been something I'd needed to fix... And it' fixed now... So yeah.. =)) Sorry for changing your URL and stuffs.. anyways.. I'm currently anoyed right now.. *sigh* :| All of a sudden I don't wanna blog right now.. Grrr!! >_< But yeah.. welcome back! ;)